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Saturday, July 29, 2006'

juz gt home for awhile lyk ard 930pm.. met twangie, and the 2 quekers. we went to far east square's flea market. it sucked. oh n guess who i saw thr. my ex boss. *faint* n i avoided my ex boss. haha... so we walked fr far east square [which is at raffles place if u dunno] all the way to chinatown's flea market. haha... walked ard thr. twangie gt her air brush tatt done. its a fairy. nice. it looks so fucking real. i wanted to do too but they didnt have the design i want. oh well. den we found this SUPER DUPER [xINFINITY TIMES] COOL beads shop. I LOVE IT TO DEATH! they have so many pretty stuffs! i could buy the whole shop if i have the $ i tell u. anyhoo.. twangie n are gonna go back thr another day to gt our stuffs. im gonna gt my coloured glass beads to do my necklace n some other funky beads to do studded earrings. LOVES. haa.. aft chinatown, town-ing. queker's fren came n join us at dinner. aft dinner, we went to find ying. n guess wat. juz before we met ying, louis left. den.. while chatting with ying. twin n jossy came! omfg. this is too coincidental. but in a gd way of cos. so quekers left with the frenz, den twangie n i hanged with twin n jos. as usual. chatted abt crazy people. literally, mentally illed people. haa...

most prob gonna meet up with the anti ones next weekend. YAY! oh.. n mom is gonna try gt tix to brisbane on mon!!! WISH US LUCK!!! brisbane is alwaz a hot hot place for stuffs to go.. so... it really depend on our luck. but since we're gonna go during off-peak season. thrs a higher chance of getting it. better get i tell u mommy. hahaa.. i seriously cant wait for sept to come. sept = AUSSIE HERE I COME!! =)))))))))) ok. so mom warned me nt to take too many orders for things fr aust fr my frenz cos.. ive gt too many family members to gt stuffs for too. n im need to gt TONS of stuffs for myself too. hahaa.. im so excited!!!! lalalalalalalaalaala.. haha..

ok. maple time! ciaoz!

xoxo
10:23 PM
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006'

I HAVE DECIDED!!! im getting the piercing on the DAITH!! ive added the pic here once again. ok.. diff pic but same kinda piercing as the 1 posted in the previous entry. mom only allows the anti tragus piercing cos its at the ear lobe. wth... but who cares. im gonna gt it without her knowledgement again. needles here i come!! haha.. hmm.. most probably gonna gt it aft my trip. cos i need time to save MONEY! hahaa... needle piercing nt very cheap u knw. haha.. im excited already. i cant wait! haa.. and I DONT CARE!!! heh. but.. i still want the anti-tragus 1. hmm.. shud i gt tt too? but if i do, hw am i gonna listen to my ipod????? =( we'll see.

so.. my heart ached today. i saw him. but he didnt. im nt aching cos he didnt see me. im aching becos u knw. dun wanna gt started on it again.

needles needles needles needles... YAY! i love needles

xoxo
8:38 PM
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im heavily broken and i dunno wat to do
cant u see that im choking and i cant even move

i juz read denise's blog. so we happened to have a bf of the same name n reading her entries abt them makes me all emo. fuck. i mean.. im happy for them but.. it starts to remind me of him. so thr was this entry abt wat he gave to her for their 1st mth anni and straight aft tt was a huge i love sean. the gift was why he loves her blah blah.. n some of the pts, sooooo reminded me of us n of him. i feel still feel sad. yes i did promise u guys nt to feel sad but.. i still cant do it. at least.. i try to nt think abt stuffs nw. and i really cant help but start feeling upset abt stuffs all over again when im triggered. i still love him as much even thou he doesnt love me tt much anymore. i still want him ard me even thou he's starting to gt bored of me. i really cant help but feel this way. i need him. i really do. ok.. so at this pt of the entry, wen's probably getting a knife ready to stab me. sorry girl. i really did try to nt think but my heart says a diff thing fr my mind.

i was watching some chi drama serial juz nw. heard something tt says hw i feel abt him. when a girl finds a shoulder tt is comfortable for her to lie on, she'll want to depend her life on him for the rest of her life.

xoxo
12:51 AM
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Tuesday, July 25, 2006'

*screams "TIRED!!!!!!!!!"* im tired. rah... ive gt a test n an "interview" tml. i juz finished studying the codes for stacks [programming] and ive still gt trees to studying [another set of programming codes again]. oh. n ive still gt my report to memorise for the stupid "interview". fuck. my eyes are closing already. =((

ok.. i better go back to studying nw..

i juz want you to love me whole heartedly. make me whole again

xoxo
9:05 PM
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Monday, July 24, 2006'

nw that im crying, u dont even care...

this song reminds me of u.

xoxo
7:55 PM
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Sunday, July 23, 2006'

i love this the most. but if i gt this, i cant listen to music on earphones

so.. i was surfing thru the net on piercings.. so i found pics on some of the piercings i want. the top pic.. its a pericing on the neck. haha... cool huh. i love it!! ive been wanting it for awhile but i knw its gonna hurt MAJORLY. so... i seriously doubt i'll gt tt. haa..

xoxo
8:11 PM
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Saturday, July 22, 2006'

thot of the day:

cherish wat u have, while u still have them. dun wait til its too late

erm.. its suppose to be 22 july nw. something wrong with blogger's time bar. damn it.

prissay promise to come find me ltr. awww.. so sweet of u LAH. n twang.. so sorry to make u so worried last nite!!! so u see... my gfs are the best. they love me so much. i love them ALOT ALOT ALOT too.. =) u girls make me smile. of cos, nt forgtting de other quek. heh.. girls unite! twang so cute.. wait for me to call her back until she worried lyk mad. haha... den i call her back, straight away ask her. can u let me cry. hahhaa... sorry lah babe. muachx. but she did let me cry. cry until no more tears to cry. hahaha.. den tt stupid unfilial fellow... make me laugh by arguing with twang. haha.. all the stupid things they could argue abt are so funny..

yings ans were 1 of the best. most of them were emoticons n wat kinda emoticons? the fellow fainting n falling to the ground. haha... n i showed her mine. bang ur head against the wall emoticons. haa.. u knw wat. i need shopping theorpy. but im so bloody broke. its ok. we're gonna gt our birkie's next week. YAY!!! haha.. i need chocs.

xoxo
11:59 AM
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Friday, July 21, 2006'

im nt gonna deny abt feeling hurt. so things arent the way they were before. ur feelings faded. mine didnt. nt a bit. tt hurts even more.. i cant help but cry. i feel my heart breaking with every word i say. why muz god alwaz do this to me. gives me beautiful people, make me love them, den take them away fr me. 1st was my family. ok. so dad n i havent had a gd relationship since i was a lil girl. but mom.. god juz took her love away fr me. den when my world was shaky, god gave me you. as my world crashed, he took u away fr me. ok, so he gave you back to me. make me fall in love with u all over again. nw.. he's on the verge of taking u away fr me. fuck. why!? if u wanna give me something beautiful, den dun take it away fr me. if u wanna take it away fr me, den dun give it to me fr the start. hw many times does he want to hurt me? i still believe in u god. dun make me lose faith. i pray n pray n pray for u to nt take him away fr me. give me back wat u gave me. all of it.. but.. u're nt answering me. damn it. THE MAN UP THR! ARE U EVEN LISTENING TO ME?! IF U CREATED ME TO GT ME HURT THRU OUT MY FUCKING LIFE, DEN DUN CREATE ME! U CAN JOLLY WELL TAKE ME AWAY. all of me. damn it.

xoxo
11:00 PM
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=(

lollipop isnt helping yet. n my tummy's starting to hurt again.
i want u and i need u..

xoxo
2:19 PM
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Thursday, July 20, 2006'

hey people.. sorry for the trouble of re-linking me, but i really appreciate it. =) iyes.. prissay.. i'll alwaz rmb i have u n u heart me. hee.. i heart u too!! n twang. dun be jealous. i heart u ALSO!!! hee... yes. im blessed to have prissay n twang. loves.. n baby; i'll alwaz love him..

anywaz... ive been having a bad tummy too. hurts everyday. dammmmmnnnnit. i think, im gonna come dwn with a cough too.. been weezing lately. hopefully my asthma isnt gonna back. great. nw my tv has to break dwn. fuck.

ok. i need to go do my work nw. ciaoz.. n my tummy still hurt =(

take me to a place i love,
take me all the way

xoxo
7:49 PM
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