im heavily broken and i dunno wat to do
cant u see that im choking and i cant even move

i juz read denise's blog. so we happened to have a bf of the same name n reading her entries abt them makes me all emo. fuck. i mean.. im happy for them but.. it starts to remind me of him. so thr was this entry abt wat he gave to her for their 1st mth anni and straight aft tt was a huge i love sean. the gift was why he loves her blah blah.. n some of the pts, sooooo reminded me of us n of him. i feel still feel sad. yes i did promise u guys nt to feel sad but.. i still cant do it. at least.. i try to nt think abt stuffs nw. and i really cant help but start feeling upset abt stuffs all over again when im triggered. i still love him as much even thou he doesnt love me tt much anymore. i still want him ard me even thou he's starting to gt bored of me. i really cant help but feel this way. i need him. i really do. ok.. so at this pt of the entry, wen's probably getting a knife ready to stab me. sorry girl. i really did try to nt think but my heart says a diff thing fr my mind.

i was watching some chi drama serial juz nw. heard something tt says hw i feel abt him. when a girl finds a shoulder tt is comfortable for her to lie on, she'll want to depend her life on him for the rest of her life.
xoxo
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