im nt gonna deny abt feeling hurt. so things arent the way they were before. ur feelings faded. mine didnt. nt a bit. tt hurts even more.. i cant help but cry. i feel my heart breaking with every word i say. why muz god alwaz do this to me. gives me beautiful people, make me love them, den take them away fr me. 1st was my family. ok. so dad n i havent had a gd relationship since i was a lil girl. but mom.. god juz took her love away fr me. den when my world was shaky, god gave me you. as my world crashed, he took u away fr me. ok, so he gave you back to me. make me fall in love with u all over again. nw.. he's on the verge of taking u away fr me. fuck. why!? if u wanna give me something beautiful, den dun take it away fr me. if u wanna take it away fr me, den dun give it to me fr the start. hw many times does he want to hurt me? i still believe in u god. dun make me lose faith. i pray n pray n pray for u to nt take him away fr me. give me back wat u gave me. all of it.. but.. u're nt answering me. damn it. THE MAN UP THR! ARE U EVEN LISTENING TO ME?! IF U CREATED ME TO GT ME HURT THRU OUT MY FUCKING LIFE, DEN DUN CREATE ME! U CAN JOLLY WELL TAKE ME AWAY. all of me. damn it.
xoxo
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