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Saturday, September 30, 2006'

im tired of getting hurt. so dont lead your footsteps back to me. cant you tell that i dunno myself. i need someone to remind me to let it go. so im leaving you this time its for good.

another failed attempt of surprising me. haa. blame it on the crew. ask them why did they start the performance late. ask them why did they put A VACANT AFFAIR last. lastly. blame it on whoever caused me to gt grounded. haa.

watched stay alive. it wasnt scary but more of freaking me out abt playing games. haaa. game over in the game n u'll die in real life. my gosh. toking abt games. 2 games tt i play the most [excld. maple] are made into movies. cool. i wanna watch. house of the dead and dead or alive. heh. anybody wanna watch with me? haha...

oh oh oh!!! evanesence new album's coming out!!! YAY!!!! i cant wait. i sssssooooo can "connect" with amy lee thru her songs. i mean. i knw exactly hw the hell she feels. i guess tts why im so super hooked to her songs. and im soooo gonna gt their new album. oh and A VACANT AFFAIR'S ep too. any sponsors?

ive decided nt to splurg my pay on a xbox or digi cam anymore. im gonna use it to do something ive been postponing for a SUPER long time. drum lessons. haa. can't wait! =))) and i do miss writing.

xoxo
9:06 PM
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im tired of getting hurt. so dont lead your footsteps back to me. cant you tell that i dunno myself. i need someone to remind me to let it go. so im leaving you this time its for good.

another failed attempt of surprising me. haa. blame it on the crew. ask them why did they start the performance late. ask them why did they put A VACANT AFFAIR last. lastly. blame it on whoever caused me to gt grounded. haa.

watched stay alive. it wasnt scary but more of freaking me out abt playing games. haaa. game over in the game n u'll die in real life. my gosh. toking abt games. 2 games tt i play the most [excld. maple] are made into movies. cool. i wanna watch. house of the dead and dead or alive. heh. anybody wanna watch with me? haha...

oh oh oh!!! evanesence new album's coming out!!! YAY!!!! i cant wait. i sssssooooo can "connect" with amy lee thru her songs. i mean. i knw exactly hw the hell she feels. i guess tts why im so super hooked to her songs. and im soooo gonna gt their new album. oh and A VACANT AFFAIR'S ep too. any sponsors?

ive decided nt to splurg my pay on a xbox or digi cam anymore. im gonna use it to do something ive been postponing for a SUPER long time. drum lessons. haa. can't wait! =))) and i do miss writing.

xoxo
9:06 PM
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Friday, September 29, 2006'

omg. i tried to lock my freaking blog. bt apparantly, it failed. thrs a permission section whr i can choose who i allow to read my entries. but! it isnt working!!!! damn it.. oh well. any1 knws hw to set password to their blog here? teach me hw to plz. =))

xoxo
8:49 PM
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I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you just to have somebody by my side. And I don't want to hate you, I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry. And that don't really matter to anyone anymore. But like a fool I keep losing my place and I keep seeing you walk through that door. But there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are. Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough. Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you. Baby, you don't have to take the fall. Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you. Maybe I just want to have it all. It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain. And like a fool who will never see the truth, I keep thinking something's gonna change. And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone. Are there things that you wanted to say? And do you feel me beside you in your bed, there beside you, where I used to lay? And there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch. There's a reason why people don't stay who they are. Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

xoxo
8:35 PM
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Thursday, September 28, 2006'

.disturbed.

today was alrite. felt so sleepy this morn. thank gd they gave me something new to work on for a lil while. tt kinda wake me up for awhile cos i gotta do checking so it stimulated my brains a lil. haa. so everything were pretty stale till abt 11.50am. 1st i found out tt im gonna gt to go McDonalds for lunch today [with 1 of the young aunty. haa!]! ive been having tastless food fr food court for the past 3 days. den.... i recieved a msg fr mich. "can we have lunch now??" yea. the asshole shocked me. he surprised me by turning up during lunch. haa. i kinda ruined the surprise a lil. oh well. heh

im sooooooooooooooooooooooo hooked to justin timberlake's songs nw. fr his new album of cos. gosh. im still nt a fan of justin. but i swear the songs fr his new album [future sex sounds] are so addictive. im so in love with.. MY LOVE! the song u stupid. yes. the title is called my love. gosh. its ssssssoooooooooooooo nice. haa.

n you!!!!!!!!!!! better rmb to bring me to A VACANT AFFAIR'S CONCERT. or else.. you DIE. heh. ur poddy is still with me. n so is ur lolly.

no i cant let go of you. you're holding me back even without trying to.
without even lifting a finger, you're holding me back.

xoxo
8:24 PM
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006'

u're ruining me, actually.

omg!!! im so freaking bored!!!! maple's dwn. fuck. n i have nthing else to do. thrs nthing nice on tv too.

so! i was thinking which digi cam to buy in the near future rite nw. hmm... ive already narrowed it dwn to 2 choices. both are fr sony.

T10 in white. slim, light weight. but doesnt take as gd pics as the old school type.
the old sch professional typa cam but its digital instead of old sch films. takes super gd pics but its super bulky. i forgt the model number.

help! help me decide which to gt. the old sch 1's gonna cost me abt 1000 bucks? n T1o's gonna cost me $599. opinions plz!

ok. i need u guys to help me decide on another thing. out of these 3 pics. pick 1 tt u think its the best. mom wants me to send it in for some win a trip back to aust contest. i need opinions fr u guys soon! ASAP!

lil fellow is nt helping me in killing boredom. she's too busy being fascinated with the living room table cloth to even entertain me. n 1 of poor lil orange, his hand tore. u cant see it till u lift his hands up. asked mom if she has a way to sew it back and she isnt sure herself. haa. hw nice.

xoxo
9:11 PM
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i wish i nv met u so i dun have to feel this much of pain. i rather nt having you fr the start den to lose you nw.

so! it seems lyk today's the day tt radio stations are out to torture me. both perfect 10 n power 98 kept playing songs tt reminded me of him. i swear it did kill my mood while i was working. thank god for starbucks! it helped cheer me up a lil. den again, it still hurts deep dwn inside. oh well. my life still pretty much goes on without him as u all can see.

i knew coming home wun help cheering me up. but im so fucking grounded. juz becos i gt home late on the day of diana's chalet. wtf. hw lame. if i wasnt grounded, den i'll have twang to help cheer me up more. i feel even moodier nw thx to mom. fr the time i gt home, she couldnt really stop nagging. she's still chasing me to bathe. bt i really need to let these sucky emotions out somewhr 1st before i even have the mood to do anything else. argh. i hate home. bt i dun have much choice. so u see. aust was still the best days of my life. i really wanna go back thr someday. n i really wanna move thr.

ok. i really gotta go bathe nw. before she starts making more noise n fustrates me even more.

xoxo
6:30 PM
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//this yesterday's post. blogger screwed up so i have to repost it today.

woke up today, thinking of you. another nite, and i made my way thru. so many dreams still left in my mind but it can never come true. i press rewind and rmb when i close my eyes and im with you again, but in the end i can still feel the pain everytime i hear your name. the sun wun shine since you went away. seems like the rain's falling everyday. its juz 1 heart whr it once was true. its gonna be this way till i get over you.

i tried to run away, but i juz cant escape. memories of you everywhr. they say tt time will dry the tears, but true love burns for a thousand years. give my tomorrows for 1 yesterday juz to knw tt i could have you here.

when will this river of tears stop flowing? cant walk away when the pain keeps calling. looks lyk i juz gotta take it fr here on my own. but its so hard to let go

xoxo
6:20 PM
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006'

//this post has been re-posted due to debbie's request of me deleting tt pic of her off. =) the old post will therefore be deleted

post originally written on 23 sept 2006

yest was diana's bbq. drank alot, chat alot, ok.. didnt eat alot. but it was pretty fun. the grp was much smaller den usual but at least we have jiamin's company. and.. once again, we met new people. haa.. diana wanted to see debbie drunk so we played this game called i"I Never..". Debbie was pretty much our target for the nite. haha.. poor girl. hope she's alrite nw. ok. i really need to go poop nw. ciaoz people!

xoxo
8:20 PM
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Monday, September 25, 2006'

i knw tt all the gd guys in the world do nt exist anymore. cos even u, my once almost perfect guy has changed.

wats a girl to do?

xoxo
10:04 PM
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today's 1st day of work. n guess wat? i was late. thankfully, they're pretty cool abt it. so i wasnt into any sort of trouble. phew. haha.. hws work many of u might ask. so i'll ans here all at once. its was alrite. planned to go have lunch on my own den drop by adidas to shop. but... i gt dragged along by the rest of them for lunch. whr i ended up? foodcourt for lyk a whole 45mins. hw nice. ok. and for the whole day? i was busy sorting their orders out n spent only lyk an hr entering data.. gosh. nw i knw why they need a temp staff so urgently. n thank god they do. they created a job for me. means.. i'll gt money. haa.. n i need a lot of cash. gosh. ive gt so many things i wanna buy. trust me. my total pay aint gonna be enough. ok. lets see wat i want

the to buy list:

Sony T10 digi cam
mom's roaul [did i spell it correctly? cos i think i didnt] blouse / her adidas shoe
a pair of adidas or nike's flats for me
a new cell phone. most prob moto krzr
apple video iPod
my huge gucci tote
my navel piercing - yea. ive decided to gt a navel piercing 1st instead of a daith piercing. the girls decided on it for me. sorta. haa. i asked them for their opinions. majority wins
and definately.. 1 more pair of skinny jeans

so nw u see? i need to win the 1st prize of lottery to satisfy my needs. haa.. ok. idol time.

xoxo
8:05 PM
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Sunday, September 24, 2006'

im so fucking pissed. pissed with everything at home. i hate it. i wanna move out. fuck

xoxo
7:40 PM
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Saturday, September 23, 2006'

this is like the constipated pic. haa

tts cheryl's ice mocha elephino [or ele something. haa] n my new york rasberry soda. YUMMY!

omg. whrs everyone?! oh well. im bored n here are some pics taken today [all at nydc]. haa.

great. mich juz sent a really lame sound file. wat it sounds lyk?
juz imagine him saying delphine in a draggy way.

xoxo
12:52 AM
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Friday, September 22, 2006'

prissay dear.. changes are made for u. is the fonts big enough? nt enough tell me okie? haha.. jk.

so.. i met cheryl today. n i applied for 2 jobs today. guess wat? all replied. haha.. but the 1 at dhoby ghuat replied me 1st. n obviously, i accepted it. hahaha.. n i have to nt reply the admin job for sentosa. oh well. dhoby's nearer den sentosa. hahaa.. thrfore, i officially start work on mon. YAY! haha.... wanna meet me, better call n check with me yar? loves people.

xoxo
11:18 PM
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Thursday, September 21, 2006'

*yawn* im tired. was doing the photo album up for the aust pics. den.. i gt tired since i had to strain my eyes n all while doing cos the light spoilt. fuck. everything in my hse seems to be breaking dwn. 1st was my tv [and its still broken]. den my room light. den the kitchen light [which apparantly all gt fix CEPT FOR MY TV. dammit]. nw? the living room light. hw nice. oh well. romantic setting for lil fellow n i. no.. maybe i shud have a date with my new spongebob toy. since spongebob n patrick are my new bfs. i knw im sucha greed. but who cares. haha...

gonna go on my job hunting tml with cheryl! yay!! my dear girl is back. i miss her till the accumulation of shit has piled up to form a moutain. heh. den in 4mths time, she's leaving me all alone here again. great. but its super ok. i still have my 2 girlfrens with me. much love to them. hee..

yea. so im a confused child rite nw. thx to u. i dunno. half of me's happy n half of me's annoyed. i mean. obvious reason why im happy. why am i annoyed? i mean. hey. u were the 1 who didnt want me in the 1st place. u were the 1 who said love's out the door. den nw, u say tt life's empty without me. do u knw wat u want? or are u confused too? oh well. watever it is.. im gonna sit back n relax and let god do the decision this time.

xoxo
10:25 PM
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dont cry to me
if you love me,
you whud be here with me
you want me,
come find me
make up your mind

xoxo
1:35 AM
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Monday, September 18, 2006'

yay! lil fellow's back. she's homesick. so obvious. poor girl.

xoxo
11:15 PM
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okie doke! the pics are up! dolphin feeding pics are nt available online. so if u wanna see. ask me.

go see

xoxo
4:07 PM
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Sunday, September 17, 2006'

IM BACK PEOPLE!!! haha.. ok. so today's entry is gonna be kinda long. bare with it guys! =)

Monday - Sept 11
Took a nite flight to brisbane. Tian n twang sent me off. AWWW.. hahahah... obviously, i couldnt slp in the plane. I WAS TOO EXCITED! haha.. but no worries. i was still really hyper. sugar plus aftnoon naps. yea.. they do the trick. haa

Tuesday - Sept 12
Arrived at brisbane international at abt 6 plus in the morn aussie time [equals to 4 plus spore time]. waited quite awhile for our coach to come pick us up n send us to the wharf. so! while waiting, we decided to go for breakfast. haha.. i had cup noodles n coffee. YUMMY!!! i swear aussie has the tastiest cup noodles man. haha.. ok. fast fwd. blah blah blah. we took a boat fr the wharf to tangalooma island. OMG. the boat ride was so fun. n erm. funny. haha... ok. so the ride was really bumpy [obviously. aust have real WAVES] n the sea water was able to splash into the top deck of the boat [cos it wasnt covered lyk the bottom deck. DUH!]. rmb. even thou its spring nw, its still cold cos winter juz passed. somebody warned these 2 girls nt to sit at the area whr the water will splash into. but guess wat? they still sat thr. it was funny seeing them gt wet. cos its lyk they refuse to move n all even thou they're wet n freezing cold. even 1 of the girl's sis was laughing at her. haha.. den we reached. brrr.... super cold cos of sea breeze. so cold wind + sea breeze = shivers. den it rained too. shit. but its really ok. mom n i hid in the resort cos it was so cold. haha.. den.. we were thinking if we shud continue with the plan of feeding the dolphins. obviously, we did cos we went all the way thr juz for it. OMG! the water was freezing cold cos it was nite too. gosh. but it was really fun feeding them.

Wednesday - Sept 13
it was a wasted day cos of the unusual departure time for the boat ride. checked in at Gold Coast's hotel den went out for dinner. had chinese food to keep us warm. n mom gt me sharksfin too. YUMMY!!!!

Thursday - Sept 14
Movieworld. hmmm... its more for the kids i muz say. thr're only 2 rides tt are made for the bigger kids to play which apparantly i didnt take. cos.. its too scary!!! n my poor lil stomach will definately fly outta me if i take those 2 rides. haha.. took a photo with bugs n tweety. heh. watched the performances. they've gt this super cool performances. viewing using 3d. with additional of physical effects. so cool. n so fun. haha.. aft movieworld, we squeezed in shopping since thurs is their extended shopping hrs day. they close at 530 normally. but on thurs, they close at 9. bought clothes. OF COS! haha... den packeted McDonalds back to our room for dinner cos we didnt have time to have dinner thr. the whole shopping centre was closing.

Friday - Sept 15
Shopping day!!! so basically, we juz shopped the whole day. thru out the trip, ive been wanting to gt this pair of really cute shoes. it comes in 2 diff design n 4 diff colours. all are juz as nice as each other. BUT!!! i searched everywhr. it juz doesnt come in my size! shit. they're all too big. fuck. nvm. den.. headed dwn to the beach in the evening for more shopping. but this time, as the nite market. its lyk our pasar malam. but minus the food. cept for fresh strawberries n macadamia nuts.

Saturday - Sept 16
Dreamworld!!! goodness. we didnt have time to enjoy the whole of dreamworld. wats worst? i missed spondgebob squarepants performance. DAMN THE COACH COMPANY. so much for joining a tour. argh.. so this staff of dreamworld pitty me cos i was so upset tt i missed spondgebob so many times n i came all the way to dreamworld juz to see him. she decided to check the exact timing tt spondgebob'll be out to take photos with people for me. yay! so nice of her. she did tt even thou she wasnt suppose to. aww. obviously, i took photos with spondgebob n patrick. WHEEEE!!! haha... n mom gt me a spondgebob toy too.. hee.. oh. n we took the helicopter too. haha.. i felt lyk 1 of the rich n famous. haha..

Sunday - Sept 17
Today. yea. coming back fr aust. i miss aust. i wanna go back thr. to gold coast. this time, i wanna go thr with frenz. heh.. am thinking of moving thr to live too. hee..

okie! tts all folks! ahaha.. hmm.. as for the photos, it'll be up soon. gonna upload it tml. so.. check this space! =)

xoxo
11:02 PM
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Sunday, September 10, 2006'

so we juz toked abt staying as gd frenz fr nw on. n the very next moment, u called me hon which u say is by accident. wat this suppose to mean? once again, u've juz made things a lil diff. u're alwaz lyk tt. u leave, n when im working on forgetting u, u come back. can u nt do tt plz? if u want to leave, leave.

u knw wat? its ok. in 30hrs, i'll be on my way to aust. far away fr here.

xoxo
3:25 PM
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Saturday, September 09, 2006'

its nt even 2hrs n i miss lil fellow already. =(((

so... today's the 9th. ok. i admit im a lil affected by it. but its totally ok. it takes time rite? well.. at least im nt overreacting or something. haa.. i could shop. bought new clothes. WHEEEEE... ok. clothes for aust. its cold thr. heh. i could eat lyk a pig. i could laugh n chat. yea.. i guess im alrite. so its the 1st time without him on the 9th. i dun miss him lyk miss him. i juz ended up thinking abt last time. celebrating the 9th together n all. tts abt it. i guess..

this i dun even feel the distance
im nt missing, im nt missing u

im watching i am sam. its a pretty nice movie. father's love. ahh.. haha.. ok. its a no comercial show. so... I NEED TO BE BACK WATCHING! haha.. ciaoz!

xoxo
11:18 PM
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Friday, September 08, 2006'

ok. its 5.40am nw [therefore its suppose to be 8th of sept]. wow. yea. im still so bloody hyper. it muz be my white choc dream ice blended. ahh!!!!!!! ok. so i havent slept a single bit since the time i gt home fr ying's bday celeb. haa.. anywaz. ying's celeb was ok. the grp was pretty small today. anywaz. bro's goin into the army abt nw. =( 1 less person to stand up for me. its ok. twin's still here. thank god. we'll miss u bro!!!! pics will be posted soon! once twin send me the photos

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING!!! muachx

mich's awake too. haa.. we're meeting up for breakfast at lyk 7 plus ltr. haahahhahaa... i knw wat u're gonna say. SIAO! but we're hungry. haa.. im tempted to wake pris up n ask her to go for breakfast too. but i knw she slept very late so.. better nt. hee...

mom's waking up soon. she's gonna be shocked. haa.. dun care. i'll watch CHANNEL NEWSASIA! bo bian. tts the only thing on on tv at this time of de hr. oh well.

xoxo
5:45 AM
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006'

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xoxo
12:04 AM
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Monday, September 04, 2006'

im sleepy. stupid weather.. rain rain rain... anywaz.. juz gt home. met up with the siao 1 n wen. went to la kopi. hahaha... but we ended up drinking dinosaur, coconut n some ginger tea. heh. so bloody bloated. i couldnt even finish my dinosaur. den.. he sent us home. =)

its exactly a week to my trip. nt so excited aft all. so broke.

xoxo
7:36 PM
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Saturday, September 02, 2006'

cement is goin dwn.... haa

rite girls? hearts!

xoxo
6:37 PM
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Friday, September 01, 2006'

ok. the 1st part of this entry, is juz for prissay dear.
im so glad to have u. awww rite? haha.. thx for being thr for me all the time. i really appreciate it n really do mean it tt im so glad to have u ard. loves loves loves!!! =)

nw.. the 2nd part
went for perlini's private sale today. n guess who we bumped into. YING! i miss u girl. once again, she gave me the pretty much needed hug tt i need. sweet. to ying: i knw tt its sucha waste tt he n i broken up. den again, its juz a matter of time. so im REALLY FINE girl. yes. congratulate me. haha..

xoxo
10:12 PM
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ok. 2nd entry for the day. haa

no matter how i try, i cant hate you
but that doesnt mean it doesnt hurt
maybe we're better off as frenz. juz frenz.

so. im nt de only 1 who juz went thru a breakup. wats this? a breakup season? haha.. i seriously think tt he n i are better off as frenz. u see. he's so much nicer to frenz den to gf. juz being frenz with him saves me the extra heartache n i can still have him ard me. but rite nw, things are too akward to even look at each other. but u knw wat? this time, its over for good. really. im nt gonna turn back anymore. i swear. the forever that u've promised me, i knw i wun have the luxury to enjoy it n u knw wat? it really doesnt matter cos im really nt turning back. 100% sure.

xoxo
12:30 AM
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